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[trigger_man]

The next morning, Jack doesn't wake easily.  Mired in disturbing dreams, he tosses slightly as sleep eases its grip and as the dream fades and reality replaces it, he has a growing realization that he's not alone in the bed.

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[trigger_man]

"If you're trying to make it make some kind of sense, Carl, it's never going to happen. There isn't any rhyme or reason to it."

He sure knows it, considering how many people he knows that have been hurt or died--how many people have been hurt because of him--and how many times he's escaped death.

Not that it doesn't stop the guilt from weighing him down.

[one_man_army]

Carl opens his eyes to stare up at the ceiling, only because when he keeps them closed, his mind swims with the hangover and the images of the last forty-eight hours blur across the dark.

"It's shite, that's what it is. No sense, no reason, nothing."

He swallows.

"You know, what pisses me off about the whole thing? We didn't get the guy."

[trigger_man]

Jack nods. He's trying to think of something to say that might help, but there really isn't anything that isn't either incredibly insensitive, smugly patronizing or totally inadequate.

"Yeah, I'd be pissed too," he says, eventually. "To lose your men and not get your target...it fucking sucks, Carl."

[one_man_army]

He laughs without humor.

"It's not too early to grab another bottle, is it?"

(He's joking. Mostly.)

[trigger_man]

Jack's smile isn't the least bit merry. "Maybe not to us, but Bar might have another opinion."

[one_man_army]

Carl shakes his head.

"I think I'll stick to coffee this morning. Don't want to push my luck."

[trigger_man]

Jack nods; that decision is a little encouraging at least.

"Yeah, though the thought of drinking anything right now isn't exactly helping."